February 28, 2012
i was raised mormon & was an active member till i was 21. i was willingly excommunicated for reasons i wont post here but you can feel free to ask me about in person. after that i spent a few months attending the metropolitan community church because they were a gay friendly christian group, but soon realized that christianity in general wasnt for me. i have always been interested in magic & the religious practices of other cultures, especially that of great britain. so i decided to start my religious reeducation there. i bought a book or 2 on both wicca & druidry & decided that i was much more drawn to druidry. initially i began looking online for any groups that i could join & immediately came across ADF & OBOD, but i didnt have the funds at the time to join either. eventually i came across the Druid Order of the Sacred Grove, whom i studied with for about 1 1/2-2 years, but eventually became put off by the fact that their "arch" druid was only a druid on sundays so to speak (cont)
i know that they were the priest class of the ancient celts. they followed a mixture of cerimonial, shamanistic, & green paths. they were also considered to be arbiters of the law, & even kings had to abide by their decisions. they were powerful magicians who could change the weather, become invisible, shapeshift, & turn the land itself against their enemies. they were great poets & musicians, who could utterly exalt or utterly destroy a man with just a turn of a phrase. but this is all just surface history. the druids were walkers between the worlds. they had 1 foot in & 1 foot out of Otherworld. they communed with the gods, & felt the seasonal tide in the flow of their own blood. the natural world was sacred to them, & wherever they walked was sacred space. they were so in tune with nature, that they could become one with it, mind & body, heart & soul, weather transforming into animals, calling on the trees to do battle, or harnessing the energies of herbs to heal grievous wounds.
i actually dont know all that much about modern druids. i know that some are reconstructionists, like i guess you could say i was when i first started studying druidry. they want to do everything just like the ancients did, but i think we have lost too much for that to be possible anymore. & even if we hadent, the druids were very evolutionary in their religion, so even if they had survived to today, it is entirely possible that they would be completely different from what they were 2000 years ago. but then there are others who recognize this. these are the modern druids who can see the things around them that we know the ancients would have know about, such as herblore, poetry, divination, etc, & have used them & what we know of the ancient gods as inspiration to build a tradition that has meaning for them in todays society.
i have finally come to realize that even if it were possible, i dont have to do everything the way the ancients did it in order to call my self a druid. i am a druid because i am constantly seeking a greater understanding of the world around me. i am a druid because i hear the call of my ancestors, many of whom happen to actually be celtic. :) i am a druid because i hear the call of the gods, who are also my ancestors; Gaia IS my mother, Cernunnos IS my father. i am a druid because i feel the magic of my blood. i am a druid because i know i am connected to the Earth & all who dwell on & in Her; human, animal, plant, & mineral, & beyond that to the universe & all it contains, ever expanding, ever growing. i am a druid.
(spiritual background cont) & by the fact i couldnt do everything EXACTLY like the ancients. so after i left them, i studied on my own for a while b4 coming across the Grove of the Sacred Spring, a celtic oriented fairy tradition which focuses on a 7 elemental system & working with dragons. i studied with them for 3-4 years, & was eventually initiated, & then ordained a high priest in their order, b4 going off on my own to start my own group with my boyfriend, his sister, & a mutual friend of ours. this didnt last long however because i soon realized that we all had our own paths that we were just starting to recognize, & that it was more important that we develop them b4 trying to combine them into 1 tradition. so for now, my grove is on hold while we each persue our own paths. i have come to realize that mine is druidry, as i knew it was from the start of this journey, but have only now gained the maturity to persue it.
hey guys, it tj. ive been coming to meetings now from about mid january so most of you should know me by now :)