Sussex, WIUSA 53089
January 2, 2013
In summary, I am a post-"toughening up" sensitive. I am, however, now an introvert in a job that doesn't give a lot of social interaction. I feel disconnected from any meditation on feelings, and tire of simply letting time pass to getting better.
In the past, it gave me a great bearing on the directions I need to go, made me comfortable in where I was. Akin to being a skilled captain on the sea, knew where to go at any time, and was comfortable in any situation (even storms). Wish to comfortably return to that, as I think in the captain analogy, I turned more into an anchor, and just sink to weather the storms, and no control of direction.
I guess the lack of focus on feelings, stress, and anxiety has shut down a lot of drive. I find sensitivity at odds with the analytical and meticuous approach I take towards things, and at odds with a tendency to not want much bother about my issues.
Weirdest? Long story. Weird? Very frequently (before armoring up) would be mistaken for some priest/guru/sage.