October 14, 2012
yes.Nisargadatta,Ramana maharshi,Krishnamurti,Smooji,Adyashanti, Tony Parsons, are probably my main influences. Most of the egotistical reasons for seeking have dropped off and now i just want the truth. I spend about 3hrs a day on this. Seeking has become a part of my persona and hard to drop. I think i need someone to give me a wack over the head or I might just be a spiritual coward. I also realise how clever my mind is at creating distractions. Amazing how the phone rings or a door knocks,past garbage sneaks in etc. My practise usually is about "Who is Looking" and getting the feel of that. With Adyas help i was really getting into it this morning, good focussed determined energy,looking back at this presense which is me and enjoying the whole process of effortless effort and just really curious about the whole thing.There was no greed in it just a pure wanting to know,then my son knocks on the door. dadaar,thats the end of that,try again tomorrow.
Approx 40 yrs
I try to abide as that in meditation & let that do what is necessary for a transition full time,
Been seeking about 40yrs. Am at the last signpost on the way,but unable to make the final step.Getting glimpses but conditioning quickly regathers. Really enjoy the meetups for support & friendship.
To the point. I've been down too many side roads. This night 5/2/13 I couldnt ask for more.I was able to state my position clearly & Jeannet & Cameron walked me through the confusion until i was able to see where awareness has been lacking. Mostly i think i have to do as Ramana said & "abide as that". not try to work it out< mind stuff> & let the process do what it does. Thank you Jeannet & Cameron. 5/3/-Tnight we all had a go, stumbling thru the fog was fun for me.