Ok this is a group because I'm so unsutisfied and rageful against modern positive thinking and feel guilty even to be depressed. Life can be HELL, and to the stupid, idiotic life coaching 'guru' who I read saying "when people tell me life is harsh I ask them - compared to what?", I want to reply, compare to what life is NOT harsh you fucking idiot?
I think sometimes it's out of guilt of not being a positive person that I am not being who I really am. I'm fed up with computers and spending time sitting in a room in front of a key board. I think life is being rounded: both having deep meaningful useless depressive thoughts as well as taking action and participating to the life around. I also think anger, fear, depression, hate, sadness, loneliness, insecurity, self-doubt etc are part of being who I am though it looks nowadays these things are off limits and forbidden - the price I fear to pay is to be excluded from society and really ending up completely alone and rejected. I worry we are too many on the planet, we are depleting all resources but happily living in denial. If you've read the ballad of the red death by E.A. Poe that exemplifies very well what I believe we are living. However, this is not a suicide project, it is a place to actually paradoxically feel better by knowing you are allowed to feel bad if you need to. I believe living a life worth of living is having REAL relationships and connections with the people around me. Easier said than done though.
The name of the group may be actually somehow misleading. This is not a therapy group and I'm not a professional and I'm not here to help people dealing with their problems. It remains overall just a social group. If you need something more than that, please beware this is not the right place, there are other locations and/or groups that do that. It's not like I want to gather all the suicidal people and heavily depressed people to keep dwelling into those thoughts and feel the freedom to carry on and top themselves. I mean, I respect that, welcome to the club, I know the pain and the name of the group did come out of anger and depression. But as much as being JUST fun and positive etc is a stupid, idiotic, disgusting creed, negating the fact that we also want to enjoy life is also negating a part of ourselves. I read recently a doctor saying that depression may as well actually be caused by a deep liking of life, I agree with that. The fact is, when I go out I do not want to BE fun or whatever, I just want to stay with people, have satisfying interactions, and this is what this is about.