October 16, 2011
40 long, long years. 40 years of trying to be perfect and always feeling worthless. 40 years of never fitting. 10 years struggling to keep living and smiling and not understanding why I was such a zero. Officially resigned 3 years ago.
At a point where things couldn't possibly get any worse, started looking online for ... I don't quite know what. Support, others who felt the same anger and frustration with the church and god. I found postmormon.org which started the landslide study out of the church. With the many, many, many things on my shelf and personal experiences of cognitive dissonance it didn't take very long to figure out I had had ENOUGH and I was going to start trusting and relying on my own brain, intuition, heart, etc.
Yay Postmormons! You guys saved me. I love meeting and talking with the fun-loving, life-loving fellow postmos.