October 2, 2011
No answer yet
That I will always feel like I am in a fishbowl and that only a few people on this earth understand that I put the pieces of the puzzle together to make a different picture. It's not that I don't care, I just can't shoe the emotions very well or sometimes express them inappropriately. I also struggle with substance abuse. I have jumped from job to job and relationship to relationship; no kids; and when my parents pass I will be destitute and totally alone. I am scared and alone and am tired of trying to fit everyone else's mold as far as a job is concerned. I am NOT a "chipper happy bouncy" kinda gal.
Lots of reading. I used to feel creative but I never had support. I feel like a kid surrounded by adults, and that anything I create would be harshly judged.
Sure! Would give my life a purpose.
I am a 44 year old female who grew up with parents that never knew about why I was so strange. I struggle with finding my true self after so many years of "training" through observation. I especially have difficulty with empathy.