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On Man's Near Death Experience--His insight into the bigger picture

From: Libby B.
Sent on: Wednesday, January 4, 2012 7:54 AM
Mellen-Thomas Benedict's
Near-Death Experience

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Mellen-Thomas Bendict

Mellen-Thomas Benedict is an artist who survived a near-death
experience in 1982. He was dead for over an hour and a half after
dying of cancer. At the time of his death, he rose up out of his body
and went into the light. Curious about the universe, he was taken far
into the remote depths of existence, and even beyond, into the
energetic void of nothingness behind the Big Bang. During his
experience, he was able to learn a great deal of information
concerning reincarnation. Because of his near-death experience, he was
able to bring back scientific discoveries. Mr. Benedict has been
closely involved in the mechanics of cellular communication and
research dealing with the relationship of light to life called Quantum
Biology. This research is providing dramatic new perspectives on how
biological systems work. Mr. Benedict has found that living cells can
respond very quickly to light stimulation resulting in, among other
things, high speed healing. He is a researcher, inventor and lecturer
who holds six U.S. patents.

Several weeks after Benedict was born, he may experienced a NDE when
his bowels were ruptured. His body was tossed to one side as a corpse,
yet much to everyone's surprise he later revived. As soon as he was
big enough to grab hold of crayons, he started what became a
compulsive urge to create symbolic renditions of the black/white
yin/yang circles of Eastern religious thought. He has no memory of why
he drew those particular symbols.

He spent his grade school years in a Catholic boarding school in
Vermont, and was baptized in the Salvation Army religion as a
youngster. He traveled extensively because of a military stepfather
until the family finally settled down in Fayetteville, North Carolina.

Then, Benedict was diagnosed as having inoperable cancer. He had
retired from the frenzy of filmdom by then and was operating his own
stained-glass studio. As his condition worsened, he spent more and
more time with his art. One morning he awakened knowing he would die
the next day, and he did. As the typical heaven-like scenario began to
unfold, Benedict recognized what was happening as it was happening.
The process was familiar to him because he had read many books about
the near-death phenomenon previously.

Mr. Benedict's NDE is reprinted here by the permission of his friends
Dr. Lee Worth Bailey and Jenny Yates. Their excellent book entitled
The Near-Death Experience: A Reader, published by Routledge, New York,
in 1996, is highly recommended by the webmaster. A portion of his
near-death experience also appears in P.M.H. Atwater's book, Beyond
the Light. Concerning Mellen's near-death experience, Dr. Ken Ring
remarked, "His story is one of the most remarkable I have encountered
in my extensive research on near-death experiences."

P.M.H. Atwater has the following to say about Mellen-Thomas Benedict:
"I can attest that his case is genuine and his claims about the brain
tumor and the conditions of his death are true. I have met his mother
and step-father, been in his and their homes, and have followed his
life since - his struggles and his accomplishments - as he sought to
find a way to integrate his experience into his daily life while still
honoring the mission he felt guided to fulfill."

The Road to Death
In 1982 I died from terminal cancer. The condition I had was
inoperable, and any kind of chemotherapy they could give me would just
have made me more of a vegetable. I was given six to eight months to
live. I had been an information freak in the 1970's, and I had become
increasingly despondent over the nuclear crisis, the ecology crisis,
and so forth. So, since I did not have a spiritual basis, I began to
believe that nature had made a mistake, and that we were probably a
cancerous organism on the planet. I saw no way that we could get out
from all the problems we had created for ourselves and the planet. I
perceived all humans as cancer, and that is what I got. That is what
killed me. Be careful what your world view is. It can feed back on
you, especially if it is a negative world view. I had a seriously
negative one. That is what led me into my death. I tried all sorts of
alternative healing methods, but nothing helped.
So I determined that this was really just between me and God. I had
never really faced God before, or even dealt with God. I was not into
any kind of spirituality at the time, but I began a journey into
learning about spirituality and alternative healing. I set out to do
all the reading I could and bone up on the subject, because I did not
want to be surprised on the other side. So I started reading on
various religions and philosophies. They were all very interesting,
and gave hope that there was something on the other side.
On the other hand, as a self-employed stained-glass artist at the
time, I had no medical insurance whatsoever. So my life savings went
overnight in testing. Then I was facing the medical profession without
any kind of insurance. I did not want to have my family dragged down
financially, so I determined to handle this myself. There was not
constant pain, but there were black-outs. I got so that I would not
dare to drive, and eventually I ended up in hospice care. I had my own
personal hospice caretaker. I was very blessed by this angel who went
through the last part of this with me. I lasted about eighteen months.
I did not want to take a lot of drugs, since I wanted to be as
conscious as possible. Then I experienced such pain that I had nothing
but pain in my consciousness, luckily only for a few days at a time.
The Light of God

I remember waking up one morning at home about 4:30 am, and I just
knew that this was it. This was the day I was going to die. So I
called a few friends and said goodbye. I woke up my hospice caretaker
and told her. I had a private agreement with her that she would leave
my dead body alone for six hours, since I had read that all kinds of
interesting things happen when you die. I went back to sleep. The next
thing I remember is the beginning of a typical near-death experience.
Suddenly I was fully aware and I was standing up, but my body was in
the bed. There was this darkness around me. Being out of my body was
even more vivid than ordinary experience. It was so vivid that I could
see every room in the house, I could see the top of the house, I could
see around the house, I could see under the house.

There was this light shining. I turned toward the light. The light was
very similar to what many other people have described in their
near-death experiences. It was so magnificent. It is tangible; you can
feel it. It is alluring; you want to go to it like you would want to
go to your ideal mother's or father's arms.

As I began to move toward the light, I knew intuitively that if I went
to the light, I would be dead.

So as I was moving toward the light I said, "Please wait a minute,
just hold on a second here. I want to think about this; I would like
to talk to you before I go."

To my surprise, the entire experience halted at that point. You are
indeed in control of your near-death experience. You are not on a
roller coaster ride. So my request was honored and I had some
conversations with the light. The light kept changing into different
figures, like Jesus, Buddha, Krishna, mandalas, archetypal images and

I asked the light, "What is going on here? Please, light, clarify
yourself for me. I really want to know the reality of the situation."

I cannot really say the exact words, because it was sort of telepathy.
The light responded. The information transferred to me was that your
beliefs shape the kind of feedback you are getting before the light.
If you were a Buddhist or Catholic or Fundamentalist, you get a
feedback loop of your own stuff. You have a chance to look at it and
examine it, but most people do not.
As the light revealed itself to me, I became aware that what I was
really seeing was our Higher Self matrix. The only thing I can tell
you is that it turned into a matrix, a mandala of human souls, and
what I saw was that what we call our Higher Self in each of us is a
matrix. It's also a conduit to the Source; each one of us comes
directly, as a direct experience from the Source. We all have a Higher
Self, or an oversoul part of our being. It revealed itself to me in
its truest energy form. The only way I can really describe it is that
the being of the Higher Self is more like a conduit. It did not look
like that, but it is a direct connection to the Source that each and
every one of us has. We are directly connected to the Source.

So the light was showing me the Higher Self matrix. And it became very
clear to me that all the Higher Selves are connected as one being, all
humans are connected as one being, we are actually the same being,
different aspects of the same being. It was not committed to one
particular religion. So that is what was being fed back to me. And I
saw this mandala of human souls. It was the most beautiful thing I
have ever seen. I just went into it and, it was just overwhelming. It
was like all the love you've every wanted, and it was the kind of love
that cures, heals, regenerates.

As I asked the light to keep explaining, I understood what the Higher
Self matrix is. We have a grid around the planet where all the Higher
Selves are connected. This is like a great company, a next subtle
level of energy around us, the spirit level, you might say.

Then, after a couple of minutes, I asked for more clarification. I
really wanted to know what the universe is about, and I was ready to
go at that time.
I said, "I am ready, take me."

Then the light turned into the most beautiful thing that I have ever
seen: a mandala of human souls on this planet.

Now I came to this with my negative view of what has happened on the
planet. So as I asked the light to keep clarifying for me, I saw in
this magnificent mandala how beautiful we all are in our essence, our
core. We are the most beautiful creations. The human soul, the human
matrix that we all make together is absolutely fantastic, elegant,
exotic, everything. I just cannot say enough about how it changed my
opinion of human beings in that instant.
I said, "Oh, God, I did not know how beautiful we are."

At any level, high or low, in whatever shape you are in, you are the
most beautiful creation, you are.

I was astonished to find that there was no evil in any soul.
I said, "How can this be?"

The answer was that no soul was inherently evil. The terrible things
that happened to people might make them do evil things, but their
souls were not evil. What all people seek, what sustains them, is
love, the light told me. What distorts people is a lack of love.

The revelations coming from the light seemed to go on and on, then I
asked the light, "Does this mean that humankind will be saved?"

Then, like a trumpet blast with a shower of spiraling lights, the
Great Light spoke, saying, "Remember this and never forget; you save,
redeem and heal yourself. You always have. You always will. You were
created with the power to do so from before the beginning of the world."

In that instant I realized even more. I realized that WE HAVE ALREADY
BEEN SAVED, and we saved ourselves because we were designed to
self-correct like the rest of God's universe. This is what the second
coming is about.
I thanked the light of God with all my heart. The best thing I could
come up with was these simple words of totally appreciation:

"Oh dear God, dear Universe, dear Great Self, I love my life."
The light seemed to breathe me in even more deeply. It was as if the
light was completely absorbing me. The love light is, to this day,
indescribable. I entered into another realm, more profound than the
last, and became aware of something more, much more. It was an
enormous stream of light, vast and full, deep in the heart of life. I
asked what this was.

The light responded, "This is the RIVER OF LIFE. Drink of this manna
water to your heart's content."

So I did. I took one big drink and then another. To drink of life
Itself! I was in ecstasy.

Then the light said, "You have a desire."
The light knew all about me, everything past, present and future.
"Yes!" I whispered.
I asked to see the rest of the universe; beyond our solar system,
beyond all human illusion. The light then told me that I could go with
the Stream. I did, and was carried through the light at the end of the
tunnel. I felt and heard a series of very soft sonic booms. What a rush!

Suddenly I seemed to be rocketing away from the planet on this stream
of life. I saw the Earth fly away. The solar system, in all its
splendor, whizzed by and disappeared. At faster than light speed, I
flew through the center of the galaxy, absorbing more knowledge as I
went. I learned that this galaxy, and all of the universe, is bursting
with many different varieties of LIFE. I saw many worlds. The good
news is that we are not alone in this universe!

As I rode this stream of consciousness through the center of the
galaxy, the stream was expanding in awesome fractal waves of energy.
The super clusters of galaxies with all their ancient wisdom flew by.
At first I thought I was going somewhere; actually traveling. But then
I realized that, as the stream was expanding, my own consciousness was
also expanding to take in everything in the universe! All creation
passed by me. It was an unimaginable wonder! I truly was a wonder
child; a babe in Wonderland!

It seemed as if all the creations in the universe soared by me and
vanished in a speck of light. Almost immediately, a second light
appeared. It came from all sides, and was so different; a light made
up of more than every frequency in the universe.

I felt and heard several velvety sonic booms again. My consciousness,
or being, was expanding to interface with the entire holographic
universe and more.
As I passed into the second light, the awareness came to me that I had
just transcended the truth. Those are the best words I have for it,
but I will try to explain. As I passed into the second light, I
expanded beyond the first light. I found myself in a profound
stillness, beyond all silence. I could see or perceive FOREVER, beyond
infinity. I was in the void. I was in pre-creation, before the Big
Bang. I had crossed over the beginning of time - the first word - the
first vibration. I was in the eye of creation. I felt as if I was
touching the face of God. It was not a religious feeling. Simply I was
at one with absolute life and consciousness.

When I say that I could see or perceive forever, I mean that I could
experience all of creation generating itself. It was without beginning
and without end. That's a mind-expanding thought, isn't it? Scientists
perceive the Big Bang as a single event which created the universe. I
saw that the Big Bang is only one of an infinite number of Big Bangs
creating universes endlessly and simultaneously. The only images that
even come close in human terms would be those created by
supercomputers using fractal geometry equations.

The ancients knew of this. They said Godhead periodically created new
universes by breathing out, and de-creating other universes by
breathing in. These epochs were called yugas. Modern science called
this the Big Bang. I was in absolute, pure consciousness. I could see
or perceive all the Big Bangs or yugas creating and de-creating
themselves. Instantly I entered into them all simultaneously. I saw
that each and every little piece of creation has the power to create.
It is very difficult to try to explain this. I am still speechless
about this.
It took me years after I returned to assimilate any words at all for
the void experience. I can tell you this now; the void is less than
nothing, yet more than everything that is! The void is absolute zero;
chaos forming all possibilities. It is absolute consciousness; much
more than even universal intelligence.

Where is the void? I know. The void is inside and outside everything.
You, right now even while you live, are always inside and outside the
void simultaneously. You don't have to go anywhere or die to get
there. The void is the vacuum or nothingness between all physical
manifestations. The SPACE between atoms and their components. Modern
science has begun to study this space between everything. They call it
zero-point. Whenever they try to measure it, their instruments go off
the scale, or to infinity, so to speak. They have no way, as of yet,
to measure infinity accurately. There is more of the zero space in
your own body and the universe than anything else!

What mystics call the void is not a void. It is so full of energy, a
different kind of energy that has created everything that we are.
Everything since the Big Bang is vibration, from the first word, which
is the first vibration.
The Biblical "I am" really has a question mark after it.

"I am? What am I?"
So creation is God exploring God's Self through every way imaginable,
in an ongoing, infinite exploration through every one of us. Through
every piece of hair on your head, through every leaf on every tree,
through every atom, God is exploring God's Self, the great "I am". I
began to see that everything that is, is the Self, literally, your
Self, my Self. Everything is the great Self. That is why God knows
even when a leaf falls. That is possible because wherever you are is
the center of the universe. Wherever any atom is, that is the center
of the universe. There is God in that, and God in the void.

As I was exploring the void and all the yugas or creations, I was
completely out of time and space as we know it. In this expanded
state, I discovered that creation is about absolute pure
consciousness, or God, coming into the experience of life as we know
it. The void itself is devoid of experience. It is pre-life, before
the first vibration. Godhead is about more than life and death.
Therefore there is even more than life and death to experience in the

I was in the void and I was aware of everything that had ever been
created. It was like I was looking out of God's eyes. I had become
God. Suddenly I wasn't me anymore. The only thing I can say, I was
looking out of God's eyes. And suddenly I knew why every atom was, and
I could see everything.

The interesting point was that I went into the void, I came back with
this understanding that God is not there. God is here. That's what it
is all about. So this constant search of the human race to go out and
find God ... God gave everything to us, everything is here - this is
where it's at. And what we are into now is God's exploration of God
through us. People are so busy trying to become God that they ought to
realize that we are already God and God is becoming us. That's what it
is really about.

When I realized this, I was finished with the void, and wanted to
return to this creation, or yuga. It just seemed like the natural
thing to do.
Then I suddenly came back through the second light, or the Big Bang,
hearing several more velvet booms. I rode the stream of consciousness
back through all of creation, and what a ride it was! The
superclusters of galaxies came through me with even more insights. I
passed through the center of our galaxy, which is a black hole. Black
holes are the great processors or recyclers of the universe. Do you
know what is on the other side of a black hole? We are; our galaxy;
which has been reprocessed from another universe.

In its total energy configuration, the galaxy looked like a fantastic
city of lights. All energy this side of the Big Bang is light. Every
sub-atom, atom, star, planet, even consciousness itself is made of
light and has a frequency and/or particle. Light is living stuff.
Everything is made of light, even stones. So everything is alive.
Everything is made from the light of God; everything is very

The Light of Love
As I rode the stream on and on, I could eventually see a huge light
coming. I knew it was the first light; the Higher Self light matrix of
our solar system. Then the entire solar system appeared in the light,
accompanied by one of those velvet booms.

I saw that the solar system we live in is our larger, local body. This
is our local body and we are much bigger than we imagine. I saw that
the solar system is our body. I am a part of this, and the Earth is
this great created being that we are, and we are the part of it that
knows that it is. But we are only that part of it. We are not
everything, but we are that part of it that knows that it is.

I could see all the energy that this solar system generates, and it is
an incredible light show! I could hear the music of the spheres. Our
solar system, as do all celestial bodies, generates a unique matrix of
light, sound and vibratory energies. Advanced civilizations from other
star systems can spot life as we know it in the universe by the
vibratory or energy matrix imprint. It is child's play. The Earth's
wonder child (human beings) make an abundance of sound right now, like
children playing in the backyard of the universe.
I rode the stream directly into the center of the light. I felt
embraced by the light as it took me in with its breath again, followed
by another soft sonic boom.

I was in this great light of love with the stream of life flowing
through me. I have to say again, it is the most loving, non-judgmental
light. It is the ideal parent for this wonder child.

"What now?" I wondered.
The light explained to me that there is no death; we are immortal
beings. We have already been alive forever! I realized that we are
part of a natural living system that recycles itself endlessly. I was
never told that I had to come back. I just knew that I would. It was
only natural, from what I had seen.
I don't know how long I was with the light, in human time. But there
came a moment when I realized that all my questions had been answered
and my return was near. When I say that all my questions were answered
on the other side, I mean to say just that. All my questions have been
answered. Every human has a different life and set of questions to
explore. Some of our questions are universal, but each of us is
exploring this thing we call life in our own unique way. So is every
other form of life, from mountains to every leaf on every tree.

And that is very important to the rest of us in this universe. Because
it all contributes to the Big Picture, the fullness of life. We are
literally God exploring God's Self in an infinite Dance of Life. Your
uniqueness enhances all of life.

His Return to Earth

As I began my return to the life cycle, it never crossed my mind, nor
was I told, that I would return to the same body. It just did not
matter. I had complete trust in the light and the life process. As the
stream merged with the great light, I asked never to forget the
revelations and the feelings of what I had learned on the other side.

There was a "Yes." It felt like a kiss to my soul.
Then I was taken back through the light into the vibratory realm
again. The whole process reversed, with even more information being
given to me. I came back home, and I was given lessons on the
mechanics of reincarnation. I was given answers to all those little
questions I had:

"How does this work? How does that work?" I knew that I would be

The Earth is a great processor of energy, and individual consciousness
evolves out of that into each one of us. I thought of myself as a
human for the first time, and I was happy to be that. From what I have
seen, I would be happy to be an atom in this universe. An atom. So to
be the human part of God ... this is the most fantastic blessing. It
is a blessing beyond our wildest estimation of what blessing can be.
For each and every one of us to be the human part of this experience
is awesome, and magnificent. Each and every one of us, no matter where
we are, screwed up or not, is a blessing to the planet, right where we

So I went through the reincarnation process expecting to be a baby
somewhere. But I was given a lesson on how individual identity and
consciousness evolve. So I reincarnated back into this body.

I was so surprised when I opened my eyes. I do not know why, because I
understood it, but it was still such a surprise to be back in this
body, back in my room with someone looking over me crying her eyes
out. It was my hospice caretaker. She had given up an hour and a half
after finding me dead. She was sure I was dead; all the signs of death
were there - I was getting stiff. We do not know how long I was dead,
but we do know that it was an hour and a half since I was found. She
honored my wish to have my newly dead body left alone for a few hours
as much as she could. We had an amplified stethoscope and many ways of
checking out the vital functions of the body to see what was
happening. She can verify that I really was dead.

It was not a near-death experience. I experienced death itself for at
least an hour and a half. She found me dead and checked the
stethoscope, blood pressure and heart rate monitor for an hour and a
half. Then I awakened and saw the light outside. I tried to get up to
go to it, but I fell out of the bed. She heard a loud "clunk", ran in
and found me on the floor.

When I recovered, I was very surprised and yet very awed about what
had happened to me. At first all the memory of the trip that I have
now was not there. I kept slipping out of this world and kept asking,
"Am I alive?" This world seemed more like a dream than that one.

Within three days, I was feeling normal again, clearer, yet different
than I had ever felt in my life. My memory of the journey came back
later. I could see nothing wrong with any human being I had ever seen.
Before that I was really judgmental. I thought a lot of people were
really screwed up, in fact I thought that everybody was screwed up but
me. But I got clear on all that.

About three months later a friend said I should get tested, so I went
and got the scans and so forth. I really felt good, so I was afraid of
getting bad news.

I remember the doctor at the clinic looking at the before and after
scans, saying, "Well, there is nothing here now."

I said, "Really, it must be a miracle?"

He said, "No, these things happen, they are called spontaneous remission."
He acted very unimpressed. But here was a miracle, and I was
impressed, even if no one else was.

The Lessons He Learned
The mystery of life has very little to do with intelligence. The
universe is not an intellectual process at all. The intellect is
helpful; it is brilliant, but right now that is all we process with,
instead of our hearts and the wiser part of ourselves.

The center of the Earth is this great transmuter of energy, just as
you see in pictures of our Earth's magnetic field. That's our cycle,
pulling reincarnated souls back in and through it again. A sign that
you are reaching human level is that you are beginning to evolve an
individual consciousness. The animals have a group soul, and they
reincarnate in group souls. A deer is pretty much going to be a deer
forever. But just being born a human, whether deformed or genius,
shows that you are on the path to developing an individual
consciousness. That is in itself part of the group consciousness
called humanity.

I saw that races are personality clusters. Nations like France,
Germany and China each have their own personality. Cities have
personalities, their local group souls that attract certain people.
Families have group souls. Individual identity is evolving like
branches of a fractal; the group soul explores in our individuality.
The different questions that each of us has are very, very important.
This is how Godhead is exploring God's Self - through you. So ask your
questions, do your searching. You will find your Self and you will
find God in that Self, because it is only the Self.

More than that, I began to see that each one of us humans are soul
mates. We are part of the same soul fractaling out in many creative
directions, but still the same. Now I look at every human being that I
ever see, and I see a soul mate, my soul mate, the one I have always
been looking for. Beyond that, the greatest soul mate that you will
ever have is yourself. We are each both male and female. We experience
this in the womb and we experience this in reincarnation states. If
you are looking for that ultimate soul mate outside of yourself, you
may never find it; it is not there. Just as God is not "there." God is
here. Don't look "out there" for God. Look here for God. Look through
your Self. Start having the greatest love affair you ever had ... with
your Self. You will love everything out of that.

I had a descent into what you might call hell, and it was very
surprising. I did not see Satan or evil. My descent into hell was a
descent into each person's customized human misery, ignorance, and
darkness of not-knowing. It seemed like a miserable eternity. But each
of the millions of souls around me had a little star of light always
available. But no one seemed to pay attention to it. They were so
consumed with their own grief, trauma and misery. But, after what
seemed an eternity, I started calling out to that light, like a child
calling to a parent for help. Then the light opened up and formed a
tunnel that came right to me an insulated me from all that fear and

That is what hell really is.
So what we are doing is learning to hold hands, to come together. The
doors of hell are open now. We are going to link up, hold hands, and
walk out of hell together.

The light came to me and turned into a huge golden angel. I said, "Are
you the angel of death?"

It expressed to me that it was my oversoul, my Higher Self matrix, a
super-ancient part of ourselves. Then I was taken to the light.

Soon our science will quantify spirit. Isn't that going to be
wonderful? We are coming up with devices now that are sensitive to
subtle energy or spirit energy. Physicists use these atomic colliders
to smash atoms to see what they are made of. They have got it down to
quarks and charm, and all that. Well, one day they are going to come
down to the little thing that holds it all together, and they are
going to have to call that ... God. With atomic colliders they are not
only seeing what is in here, but they are creating particles. Thank
God most of them are short-lived milliseconds and nanoseconds. We are
just beginning to understand that we are creating too, as we go along.

As I saw forever, I came to a realm in which there is a point where we
pass all knowledge and begin creating the next fractal, the next
level. We have that power to create as we explore. And that is God
expanding itself through us.
Since my return I have experienced the light spontaneously, and I have
learned how to get to that space almost any time in my meditation.
Each one of you can do this. You do not have to die to do this. It is
within your equipment; you are wired for it already.

The body is the most magnificent light being there is. The body is a
universe of incredible light. Spirit is not pushing us to dissolve
this body. That is not what is happening. Stop trying to become God;
God is becoming you. Here.
The mind is like a child running around the universe, demanding this
and thinking it created the world. But I ask the mind:

"What did your mother have to do with this?"

That is the next level of spiritual awareness. Oh! My mother! All of
a sudden you give up the ego, because you are not the only soul in the
One of my questions to the light was, "What is heaven?"

I was given a tour of all the heavens that have been created: the
Nirvanas, the Happy Hunting Grounds, all of them. I went through them.
These are thought form creations that we have created. We don't really
go to heaven; we are reprocessed. But whatever we created, we leave a
part of ourselves there. It is real, but it is not all of the soul.

I saw the Christian heaven. We expect it to be a beautiful place, and
you stand in front of the throne, worshipping forever. I tried it. It
is boring! This is all we are going to do? It is childlike. I do not
mean to offend anyone. Some heavens are very interesting, and some are
very boring. I found the ancient ones to be more interesting, like the
Native American ones, the Happy Hunting Grounds. The Egyptians have
fantastic ones. It goes on and on. There are so many of them. In each
of them there is a fractal that is your particular interpretation,
unless you are part of the group soul that believes in only the God of
a particular religion. Then you are very close, in the same ball park
together. But even then, each is a little bit different. That is a
part of yourself that you leave there. Death is about life, not about
I asked God, "What is the best religion on the planet? Which one is right?"
And Godhead said, with great love, "I don't care."

That was incredible grace. What that meant was that we are the caring
beings here.

The Ultimate Godhead of all the stars tells us, "It does not matter
what religion you are."

They come and they go, they change. Buddhism has not been here
forever, Catholicism has not been here forever, and they are all about
to become more enlightened. More light is coming into all systems now.
There is going to be a reformation in spirituality that is going to be
just as dramatic as the Protestant Reformation. There will be lots of
people fighting about it, one religion against the next, believing
that only they are right.

Everyone thinks they own God, the religions and philosophies,
especially the religions, because they form big organizations around
their philosophy. When Godhead said, "I don't care," I immediately
understood that it is for us to care about. It is important, because
we are the caring beings. It matters to us and that is where it is
important. What you have is the energy equation in spirituality.
Ultimate Godhead does not care if you are Protestant, Buddhist, or
whatever. It is all a blooming facet of the whole. I wish that all
religions would realize it and let each other be. It is not the end of
each religion, but we are talking about the same God. Live and let
live. Each has a different view. And it all adds up to the Big
Picture; it is all important.

I went over to the other side with a lot of fears about toxic waste,
nuclear missiles, the population explosion, the rainforest. I came
back loving every single problem. I love nuclear waste. I love the
mushroom cloud; this is the holiest mandala that we have manifested to
date, as an archetype. It, more than any religion or philosophy on
Earth, brought us together all of a sudden, to a new level of
consciousness. Knowing that maybe we can blow up the planet fifty
times, or 500 times, we finally realize that maybe we are all here
together now. For a period they had to keep setting off more bombs to
get it in to us. Then we started saying, "We do not need this any more."

Now we are actually in a safer world than we have ever been in, and it
is going to get safer. So I came back loving toxic waste, because it
brought us together. These things are so big. As Peter Russell might
say, these problems are now "soul size." Do we have soul size answers?

The clearing of the rain forest will slow down, and in fifty years
there will be more trees on the planet than in a long time. If you are
into ecology, go for it; you are that part of the system that is
becoming aware. Go for it with all your might, but do not be
depressed. It is part of a larger thing.
Earth is in the process of domesticating itself. It is never again
going to be as wild a place as it once was. There will be great wild
places, reserves where nature thrives. Gardening and reserves will be
the thing in the future. Population increase is getting very close to
the optimal range of energy to cause a shift in consciousness. That
shift in consciousness will change politics, money, energy.

What happens when we dream? We are multi-dimensional beings. We can
access that through lucid dreaming. In fact, this universe is God's
dream. One of the things that I saw is that we humans are a speck on a
planet that is a speck in a galaxy that is a speck. Those are giant
systems out there, and we are in sort of an average system. But human
beings are already legendary throughout the cosmos of consciousness.
The little bitty human being of Earth/Gaia is legendary. One of the
things that we are legendary for is dreaming. We are legendary
dreamers. In fact, the whole cosmos has been looking for the meaning
of life, the meaning of it all. And it was the little dreamer who came
up with the best answer ever. We dreamed it up. So dreams are important.

After dying and coming back, I really respect life and death. In our
DNA experiments we may have opened the door to a great secret. Soon we
will be able to live as long as we want to live in this body. After
living 150 years or so, there will be an intuitive soul sense that you
will want to change channels. Living forever in one body is not as
creative as reincarnation, as transferring energy in this fantastic
vortex of energy that we are in. We are actually going to see the
wisdom of life and death, and enjoy it.

As it is now, we have already been alive forever. This body that you
are in, has been alive forever. It comes from an unending stream of
life, going back to the Big Bang and beyond. This body gives life to
the next life, in dense and subtle energy. This body has been alive
forever already.

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