You all said I'd know. I don't want to know but my heart
is saying it's time. He's going to cross over at 3:30 this afternoon.
He cried all night despite everything I tried. Pain meds,
anxiety meds, hugging him and petting him, laying beside him. He cried or
whimpered and I don't know why. He's been doing this since
Monday evening. The only time he stopped for more than a short
time was when he was eating hamburger, until of course right now. As the
sun came up he seemed to become more like his old self, which is making me doubt
feelings, but he's still crying off and on for no reason I can figure out.
Before Monday he only cried every so often in the middle of
the night, if he got lost or wanted me to wake up and give him a treat. Now,
he's crying or whimpering so much of the time that it breaks my
I keep talking to him and telling him he's finally going to
get to play with Shadow, that his brother will be waiting for him. I have to
believe it's true.
I'm so sad. My mind knows he'll be out of pain, be able to see
and play again. It's just so very hard.
Thank you all for your support.
Anna, Max and Cocoa