July 21, 2013
I was born into the church and a going member for 29 years. The last 2-3 years of the 29 I was questioning things and feeling very unhappy. I felt pressure to keep going but one day I just stopped. No one has really bothered me about it. It took a year and a half for me to tell my family and they are hurt and sad and probably pray for me daily to come back.
I stopped believing that God was the way the mormon's thought he was. Then I watched history shows and read books about how religion is used to control people. I hated going to the temple and I felt like everyone was lying when they said that they loved going. Or that they were going just to say that they went so that people would know that they were doing good. I got sick of all the judging and also the people who are waiting for Superman. I rather take matters into my own hands than wait for God to fix it. I don't want my kids to have the same handicaps I had because of my religion. I leave God a mystery and just enjoy life and all the people in it. I have loved getting to know people outside of "the church". I can't believe I avoided them for so many years! Arggh!
I'm a real estate broker. I have 2 daughters, a husband and a dog. I love nature, gardening, cleaning, and hanging out with family and friends that don't make reference to "the gospel" in every conversation.