Why me? That is what I always said to myself. Narcissistic parents and 13 failed toxic narcissistic relationships in a row until I met my soul mate and have been married 13 years. So the key to breaking the cycle of attracting narcissistic partners and being traumatized by the damage to your inner child by narcissistic parents is to truly love yourself and feel worthy of love. If you hate yourself and feel unworthy you will keep attracting and being stuck with narcissistic partners. So how do you love yourself especially if you never have felt loved by anyone. And what is self love? I think when you hate yourself and dont love yourself you always feel shame and guilt and feelings that there is something bad about you or an emptiness or flurry of constant negative cross talk. There is a "safe Space" inside our 9th undefiled consciousness where we have everything we need to love ourselves and be happy including hidden unlimited and unused potentials and abilities, enlightened wisdom without delusion, courage, compassion, self love, self empowerment and a fighting never give up/never be defeated fighting spirit. And in a sense when we cast off the transient fundamentally dark lesser self and reveal and replace it with our eternal higher true self, it is scary because as we let go of being a caretaker in a codependent relationship you have to find yourself and your needs and there is an emptiness or feeling you slipped into the abyss. In fact it is almost the same scenario that a small child faces when the realization hits that your narcissistic parents dont love you and you must please them to try and get anything and survive.
So we need a tool to take us across the sea of suffering between the lesser verus the higher self. We use the chant Nam Myoho Renge Kyo that Tina Turner used in the movie "What's Love Got To Do With It?' We have regular zoom sessions where we can talk and share but most importantly we chant to keep our life state in a state of self love and attract a soul mate and heal PTSD symptoms. And many people say "I just want to get out of the narcissistic relationship and be by myself and try to love myself. But what I see is that once people chant and open up this high life state they start repelling narcissists and attract possible soul mates. Imagine being with someone who gets you, loves you and is compatible. I chanted to feel worthy of love and a soul mate and then I put down 3 pages of positive traits I wanted in a soul mate. I chanted and visualized and met my current wife at a singles event. And the 4 other people I taught this to did the same exact thing with the same results. So we meet daily 7 days a week 9 am to 9:30 am MDT, 12 noon to 1 pm MDT, or 6 pm to 7 pm MDT. Meeting ID: 826 5667 5832 Password: CHANT