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I'm starting this group because I want to see how many people there are out there that can use the support that I need for myself. My long-term goal is to form a support group for parents who have kids, teens, and adult children who suffer from suicidal ideation and attempts (no matter the cause.) I myself have a suicidal child and I know it can feel extremely isolating and lonely. I have used therapy for years, and it does help somewhat, but often times I'm left feeling like no one in my life *truly* understands what I'm going through – the fear, the trauma, the guilt, the (sometimes) shame, the panic, the stress, the worry, the mental chaos, the feeling of no control... I believe I am not the only one going through this, that there *has* to be other parents out there living through the same things I am. I want to find a support group, but have not had much luck so far, so I thought I'd start my own. I have found plenty of support groups for parents that have children with mental health disorders, or parents that have unfortunately lost their child to suicide. I don’t belong to either of those categories, so I feel stuck without a place to turn to.
I should say that I understand that support groups for a specific mental health disorder or diagnosis might be able to cover what I’m attempting at here. My problem, however, is that my child isn’t diagnosed with anything specific, so there isn’t really a specific support group for me. If there was, I’m sure I could find some help from it. But I sort of feel like they are intertwined, but separate, issues that we deal with as parents, at least I do. My child has depression, and that carries its own set of “ways to cope”, so to speak. But the suicide attempts feel so much different than an episode of depression – they feel like a trauma, and subsequently I live with an echo of that trauma and nightmare every day of my life.
This is my starting point. Honestly, I have no real idea what I'm doing, I'm just a desperate parent. I firmly believe that there is healing, growth, and strength in helping others, and so I’m hoping to find other people who need and want help, like me, but that also want to help others. I'm looking to heal my repeatedly broken heart, and I'm looking to help others heal; I'm looking for support, and I want to offer support for others. I'm looking for like-minded people who want to have a support system for picking up those broken pieces and find new strength to carry on.
So for now, I'm just trying to put myself out there in finding people who might find some use for a group like this. If there is any interest from anyone I will start scheduling meet up events.