It seems inconceivable, like your entire world and what you thought it should look like has been turned upside down. Your beliefs about humanity, and how people should treat other people has been disrupted. The feelings of despair, confusion and utter disbelief are commonly shared by those who have been narcissistically abused.
You won’t be able to understand the Narcissist's behavior because it does not fit any model of humanity we are familiar with.
Getting unstuck from the hook that keeps you in the torment of narcissistic abuse is vital to healing, feeling safe, and having a fulfilling life. Understanding the narcissist is far less important than you coming to peace and acceptance, creating meaning in your experience, and avoiding being stuck trying to reconcile what happened for years.
We do have a real hope of recovery by healing and understanding ourselves. This intent of this meetup is to provide us with support, resources, and information to reclaim our real life and a healthy sense of self.