Trying YET AGAIN 2 RESUCITATE my ONCE-popular AF GROUP

Remember how this group was popular as hell back in the day? Thanks to crap weather a million weeks in a row & some personal conflicts of my own a few weekends, we literally haven't met since my birthday on 10/19. I'm not taking it personally; a lot of it's my fault and the effing weather's. But I'm close to one of my serious or false alarms of giving up this group entirely & its marquee, extremely popular weekly meeting day and timeframe....partly because we don't just have Saturday mornings as adult tennis Meetup competition now, but a new weekend-only group infringing on my space, although they're very nice, include me as a co-host who can edit and contribute to events, and hold all their events close as hell 2 where I live.

That said, I DO miss this weekly meeting and being the actual main & only host of it, and people actually fucking coming!? I DROVES. So I don't know if it's the million other weekly tennis events that have sprouted up, especially after Saturday morning time, which is not everyone's favorite, plus on Friday nights. But whatever. If the weather holds up and people decide to start coming back THIS Sunday (or rwally Goddamn soon), I remember (fondly) how back in the day, people actually liked & attended this effing group and, like I said....I'm not taking this personally, but I'm sick of trying in vain to organize events again. I let the consistency fall off a bit post-10/19 and the weather sure as shit is letting it STAY fallen off like a mother effer. I'm not having the greatest luck, but... IF ANYONE FEELS LIKE JOINING ME AND KEEPING ME COMPANY AFTER MONTHS OF BEING OUT OF PRACTICE AND HAVING TO QUIT LESSONS, I'VE HAD THE WORST YEAR OF MY ENTIRE LIFE BESIDES LITERALLY THE YEAR MY MOM DIED HALF MY LIFETIME AGO, THIS YEAR WAS A LITERAL NIGHTMARE, SO YOU KNOW, I WOULD LOVE TO END THIS SHIT YEAR ON A HIGH NOTE INSTEAD OF A LOW ONE. OTHERWISE, MAYBE WE CAN START JANUARY/2026 STRONG. AND I MEAN BIGTIME MAYBE, CUZ FUCK THIS. Thanks for putting up with my being a raging bitch in general, prior to this slump. My group's weekly event has been in BEYOND a slump for well over 2 months. But I'm actually more bummed out about it than taking it personally, because it was a weekly thing where I liked the people, I thought the people liked the events and.... I don't, but think something is WAY off.And it's not just the earlier starts cause of daylight savings.I hope it's not because of the shitload of new meetings on fridays and saturdays that aren't just the OG early as fuck in the morning ones, but whatever. You've seen the beautiful pictures of the sunsets, you've been there, then u stopped showing🤷‍♀️. We had dedicated members last winter who saw us through the entire season + late fall & cold all the way through March and beyond were decently well attended, if not very well attended with the exception of literally 1 week that one person came to and 0 weeks that nobody came to besides me, in which case, I'd cancel the event. This Tennis group has been something I could be at least a little proud of as the main host and it's been a solace for me during again, the second worst year of my life, besides my fucking mom dying when I was 15. Part of why it was such a terrible year was associating with terrible people and consequences resulting, including the only physical assault by a man or a woman (in this case, a man twice my size) that I've ever experienced in my life and was totally unsupported by law enforcement and pressing charges against, despite filing. Wife beating motherfuckers taking the assailant's side. Typical. Picture proof u be damned. You guys have been a good influence and a helpful way to let out the extremely superfluous anger and in the case of this year, sadness and other emotions that are way worse than usual, so I appreciate it, and I'm not trying to be a jerk off with the tone of this description. It's what it is.I would love if you guys started coming back.Otherwise, whatever, I'm gonna be going to the other group, which is a total pickle pickle party because I live so close to its event locations. I like the responsibility of being an actual host, not just someone who registers and flakes at the last minute etc...& i'm not built for those morning groups. So, you know, my own group used to be my shit, but now it's a piece of shit, so anyway, hope to see you there.I'm sure after this description, no one's gonna wanna come , but you know , that's cool. Nothing personal, strictly business except not.And I have never asked anyone to pay a dime for coming.By the way, low-key, because I've been getting away with paying way below what host fees should be. If my luck runs out....like the ENTIRE 2nd 1/2 of my 2025 and I have 2 start having to pay the full monthly host price of about $44 per month (even more now, I hear, thanks to the price of every goddamn thing costing more now), I'm not going to continue this group, sorry. because I can't do those monthly fees despite how modest they are unless people actually attend. Remember how you used to do that, guys? like in such numerous ways that I had to split the group into 2 and we had well over 20 attendees per week, sometimes at the very least 4 to 6 on super off weeks when it was freezing, and usually at least 10 to 14 on average. Those were the fucking days... Again, thank you to everyone for making every month through mid-october amazing, I don't know what the hell happened but it was partly my fault and then the momentum never regained whatsoever. And the weather's been dog shit for the last several weeks so I don't blame people, it wasn't just slightly crappy But even before that , with it admittedly being colder , people showed up in the rain in droves , what happened??? But , anyways , thanks for making ten and a half months out of the worst year of my life , that is second worst year , much more variable and for being a good influence as a group , a very diverse group , a great group to be around, unlike some people I was around outside tennis etc... As a final thought that I don't want you guys to think has me personally but hurt, I just wish that something a little beyond having a common interest with you all would keep you coming, because the whole sunset thing and good free location really worked in our favor so I don't know what's up. But that's the status, and if you want to help change it, I suggest you start showing up soon.Not to hold u hostage and force you into it. Set this.\nGroup will be ending shortly in less.Keep getting away with paying $5.60 pmonth (shhhh, don't tell anyone). Until that insane fee, I've been getting away with. Despite the Murphy's law year that topped every other year of my adult life, 1 day, my luck will run out So let's get this shit $5-$6 pmonth will run out, so let's get our shit back together before that happens.I really don't want to give up on this group. And I hope you guys don't wanna give up on it either.