What we’re about
My mini version of events that led me here: I was in narcissistic relationship for 8 years. Brutal discard, and like so many ofus, was called mentally unstable and my abuser was telling anyone who would listen, that this person was helping me. Behind closed doors, we allknow that is never the case. I was forced to the emergency room at midnight out of concern for me because I needed help, only to be ghosted and left without a ride home when they released me at 3am. Part of my decline started when I injured myself at work. I was intentionally ignored and walked, with broken feet, down a city street, by myself. I was blamed not only by my ex but by my then closest two family members of being paranoid and unstable. Around this time,I was so dysregulated and distraught that people thought I had started taking drugs. while many survivors of narcissistic abuse start to self medicate, i did not.
In fact, while everyone around me was pressuring me to change my medicines that i had been on for years,my doctor and i decided to stay the course as in my situation, meds may complicate or even worsen, my trauma symptoms. Most of the after effects of this type of gaslighting abuse, results in atypical symptoms. Many of us are misdiagnosed with Bipolar disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Anxiety etc. Complicated PTSD looks and feels so scary but i am here to tell you that healing IS possible.
